I really am so tired of everything. My depression is getting much worse. I don’t know who to go to. I don’t know where to go. I feel like my life fell apart a while ago but I feel the tiny pieces left of it are going to shatter. I’m to scared to let people I normally talk to know. I don’t want to bug them. Some of the people are going through shit themselves and I don’t want to overwhelm them so I talk to them and I help them out but then my shit just piles up. I just want to be happy. I want to have things be like how they were just a couple years ago. I was happy and things were fine. I can’t remember when the last time I had a real smile was. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t have to pretend my life was alright.